kerja..kerja..yeay..

yeehhhhahaaaa....

my first day working in this new company...
my feeling, okay...
my mind, okay...
my body, okay...
my energy, okay...
my health..tak okay...semalam demam...huhu:(

well, aku hrp aku akan suka kerja baru ni..dan akan terus suka la..dan seterusnya juga suka..
dan suka..dan suka lagi..hehehhe....

lagi satu, aku harap dapat bonus byk akhir tahun nanti..
then, harap jugak kenaikan gaji yang banyak..
dan aku harap aku suker..dan suker...
dan hepi...dan gembira...ehheheh

today, hati aku berbunga2 walaupun xbyk bunga yg aku nmpak kat ofis ni...

What do we name it?

Name it something..
Melt the hope..
Curiosity that ends the words
Merge the free thoughts
Come clean upside down..
Speak on behalf of mind
Consciously fought the responsibilities

Does it time to be free?
Frowning and grinning..
Dancing and Singing..
Swimming in the air..
Grumbling devotion..
Its necessity..
It’s the wants..
It’s the simple “ask”..
Lifting up the loaded..
Of life and life..

Get nosy on “those” life..
We’re just blind..
Know we’re here..
But didn’t feel to be here..
The destiny is there..
But as what?
For what?
With what?
Spells the beans that nobody hears..
Tells the story that nobody knows..
Scream it loud that nobody listens..
Its not me when it has to be me..
Its not what I want when I have to..
Its not my time whenever its time..

Do it..
Make sure its done..
But its all we have..
Do for the sake of not being selfish..
Coz you are definitely..
Unquestionably not alone in the air..
That requires you for not being selfish..
As being alone in this whole air is just..
Just nothing much as nothing..
That why they call it “life”..

dan dgn perasaan

aku kaku..aku seolah sebak..dan sayu..tiba2 aku rndu...
lama sudah kutinggalkan suara itu..

mungkin kerna aku berbicara dgn temannya..
maka aku dihambat rasa rindu..yg jauh..

lalu ku angkat gagang telefon dan mendail number die..
suasana spt di atas motor..aku malas mahu bercakap..
sikit lagi nk sampai rumah, katanya..
kutunggu sehingga enjin motor dimatikan..

dan perbualan hati itu bermula...
berayun...dan berirama...
hingga satu saat, aku hiba..
hampir menitiskan air mata..
mungkin dia di sebelah sana tidak tahu..
ah..biarkan aja..aku selesa begini..

kutanya "apa yg plg awk syg dlm dunia?"
jawabnya.."ada 2..awk org kedua yg sy pernah beritahu..
pertama..org yg sy syg dn kedua, org yg sy syg yg dah tiada.."
"macam awaklah..", sambungnya lagi...
kutanya.."saya?" dan dia menjawab..."ya..org yg saya sayang.."

giliran dia bertanya..kujawab..
"apa yg sy plg syg ialah perasaan.."
dibalas olehnya.."oh..perasaan..emmm, besar maknanya"
mungkin sy boleh buat satu puisi mengenai perasaan..."

topik demi topik kami bualkan..
hingga aku minta diri...
bila aku rasa rindu itu sudah kulepaskan,
aku akhiri perbualan kami dgn "take care"..
dn dia akhiri dgn kata2 yg simple namun indah..

sesudah gagang kuletakkan..
aku berteleku lama di situ..
"perlukah aku beritahu bhw panggilanku itu sama ertinya dgn kata2 "i miss u..."


dan itulah pertama kali dlm tahun kebelakangan ini, aku berperasaaan dan berbual dgn perasaan dan setelah habis perbualan..aku turut masih berperasaan...

setakat ini...dia lah yg mampu menggegarkan perasaaan ini..ya...dengan perasaan...

its so yesterday..

The air is there..
The muddle is still there..
The courage will be there..
Then the audacity went away..
perceiving the most popular obsession made me laugh..
I fabricate my inspiration there..
I manufacture my trust there..
I assemble every single things in it..

However,
Yesterday was such momentous…
I lost the guts..
Bump into you is something..
Out of the blue..

brought all the memory back..
For things we all have made..
For the time we all spent…
For the enjoyment we all experience..
For the odds that we against..
The same “fight” that we fought for..

Oh..your visibility made my eyes staggered,
Your visibility made my bones to shiver
Coz u appeared with the memoirs
Reminiscences of my own people..

strangers that covert to so called "family"..
That I used to hold years before..
The people that made me believe,
Made me grin and made me smile..
And at most made me giggle…
Then they took away the smile..
Gone together with them..
Sinking deep inside the ocean..
Where I call it ocean of the memory…

It’s a confession..
The love we all shared..
Was eternity…
And still infinites..
And it will be always damn true..
That our big family love is forever..


But now..
The love is sinking…
Inside of me..
As time flies..
I begin to forget..
The existence..
When u appears,
You made me doubt too..
Whether I’ve made a right choice..
Down there on the diverged pathway..

but it was yesterday...

its so ysterday that i couldnt fetch it back..

now its time to hope..

there is a smooth grassy path up to the hill..

where i put my dream on the top...

together with the tomorrow..

all i can say is just...

"it was yesterday..."

"so yesterday..."

aaiiiiihhhh...

First situation

I’m just plain bored girl who thinks I am now under a surveillance of “someone”…
I want to do things that I want. Yesterday I come across this one fella. He said he wanted to do good things in life as he understood that he’s being an evil man in this wonderful life..Despite of everything, I think he is enjoying his life..and upon that, I started to think that I’m living a bored dull life. I just need might need a 400 cc of any drugs or morphine that can make my mind works all over again. After all, it’s a life taker anyway..ahhahahhah…I must have lost my sense ,huh?hehhehe…

2nd situation

I start to think that I should get to know new things..Start all over again a new life..Oh, by the way, why do I need to think of that…while daydreaming and patching my mind over and over again, this hot chick with white short skirt accidentally put her paper bag on my foot. So, all the those things faded away out of my head. Suddenly out of all noise in the train, I heard this one charming white guy say sumthing.. ”are u okay, mom?”
Yeah, I think that old lady needs this seat more than I do…So, I gave her the seat, and I caught her son’s smile..yuhuuu…hehhe..And guess wht? Lord is just very fair; the woman who sat beside that old white lady reached her station, which give a way for me to sit. There you goes, what u give, u get back..hehhe..So, while waiting the train to reach the last station whish is the same station, our destination…we had a conversation..From the conversation, I know that that charming white guy and his mom came from England.He is getting divorced, he married a malay girl which stays in Tmn Greenwood. He wants to meet his daughter. And he has a son in England now.Well, nice meeting him and his mom.. Meeting them had burst and idea to me..Am I bored bcoz I’m living the same life? Surrounds by same people? I wanna get out of Malaysia….Am I ?oh, that sounds great…

wajah baru....anti lelaki??

hehehhehe

aku angap penukaran color page ku ini sbg pertukaran "angin"ku..
kalau slama hr ni aku membawa angin monsun timur laut( betul ke spelling aku ni..?aihh..),
kini aku nk bawa angin barat daya pulak...

almaklumlah...semalam aku check online....
result aku dah kuar..alhmdulillah pass..yyeeaahhhaaa....
means, aku akan grad ..yeahh...finish degree....bleh la aku plan nk smbg master kat mana nnt..hehhe...tp first thing in my mind is....cari kerja...kerja..kijo...kroje...hehhe

dan satu lagi hal yg keep stir in my mind....
jeng jeng jeng..."berpacaran.."
keh keh keh..bolehkah aku menerima si opposite jantinaku?
adakah degree dn "masih study lagi" adalah alasanku?
is it reasonable?atau anti-lelaki kah aku?
aih..mintak simpang....rasanya bkn anti kot...sbb aku suka gak tgk lelaki2 yg "menarik" ni...(menarik- tertakluk kpd istilahku sendiri sahaja,kay..)

ok...let all the readers decide which category goes to me...

1- Bila lelaki tu tgk dr jauh, aku senyum...
tp bila dtg dekat, aku buat muka...

2- Bila lelaki "menarik" ada dpn mata aku...dr jauh, aku 'usha'..
tp bila die kenyit mata...aku buat muka..

3- Bila dpt sms dlm hari pertama, aku layan mesra...
tp bila dh hari kedua bertimbun2 dia send, aku mula rasa die ngada2...aku pun buat la muka..

4- Bila lelaki tu dtg cari ajak mkn2 sejam dua, aku ok aja..tp bila dia ajak tgk movie hari esoknya pula...aku mula buat muka..

5- Bila aku setuju nk keluar tgk wyg sama2, aku enjoy aja..tp bila die ajak keluar lagi kali kedua, aku mula rasa mcm nk buat muka...

kenapa?kenapa?

dn yg plg kritikal....Bila lelaki kata "suka", aku jwb ikhlas...aku pun "suka"...
tp bila dia kata dia mula rasa "cinta"...aku mula rasa nak tarik muka dari si dia..dan aku mula kata kat diri aku.."aduh....bahaya..."aih...

hatiku dan hatimu

muahahhahha...
kalau tgk tajuk..sakan bagai org dilambung cinta..
hehehhe...mane ader..ct sekadar gembira kerna dpt berhubung dgn org yg ct sayang..abang ct...

mlm itu tiba2 ada suatu rasa di mana entah mana hilangnya ego aku...entah mana terbangnya marahku padanya.. di dlm internet kami berbual..mula cerita bermula dgn memohon maaf dan ala2 mengundur diri..maklum lah ct dah nak meninggalkan MMU tercinta..tp entahla..hasrat dihati ingin sekali pergi jauh dari cyberjaya..bukan kerna byknya kenangan atau apa, cuma tidak mahu mengimbau kenangan manis yg terlalu byk di situ..

ah, apa2 pun, ingin sekali ku nyatakan bahawa aku girang dapat berbual mesra walau tidak semesra dahulu...till now, i am glad to hear that u have never forgotten me..

i appreciate u...yeehaaa....thank u my little bro..i bet u will always remember me when Ramadhan comes....and of course, i miss ur handphone....heheh

terputus hubungan dgn blog

salam hormat..

berita tgh hari jumat ini dimulakan dgn pemberitahuan mengapa ct pawana tidak mengupdate blognyer..hehheheh

assalamualaikum semua..miss u all la..hehhehe...sbnrnya ct dah kerja..walaupun blum habs exam.dh 2 mgu ct kerja di jln raja chulan..hehheh...sekadar menambah pendapatan keluarga..

itu psl la ct x dpt update blog..hehhe...reason lain pulak ialah umah ct dh kene potong streamyx(dgn x malunyer memberitahu..)..then, kat ofis, xbleh update la..die block..nk attach email pun x bleh.friendster apatah lagi...uwwwaaa...sangap ct dok ofis...mcm2 ct fikir utk mengatur masa dpn...doakan ct dpt apa yg ct impikan yer..ct juga doakan semua doa kalian dimakbulkan...hehhehe...hari ni dpt la ct online YM ngn update blog dari kampus..muahhahah...sbb td pagi ct ade exam.nnt humaat mgu dpn pun ade lagi 1 paper..doakan ek...mudah2an ct lulus dn trus grad august ni nnt..doakan ct dpt cari keje yg ok yerk..keje skrg ni kureng la..xde ape nk blajar..xnmpk future..huhu...anyway, alhmdulillah la jugakk..duduk saja pun dapat duit...terima kasih allah..hehhe

lagi satu..apa yg bermain di fikiran ct skrg ialah pasangan hidup..bkn psgn hidup ct,tp mana2 psgn hidu la..ct dok tgk org kehulu kehilir berteman...ade yg kuat gaduh..ade yg mencari..ade yg x menghargai..ade yg nmpk loving giler tp merana..ade yg kata tidak tp sbnrnya mahu..ada macam2 la....i just wonder how is my life in the future with my love? ade ke psgn yg bahagia sentiasa?ade ke yg serasi bersama..psgn serasi bersama pun bercerai(nurul n ajai)..tp manusia kan tak perfect...cmne ek?

p/s: eh, kalu ade sesiapa tahu mane2 comp yg nk ade vacancy, rekemen ler ct ek..hehhehe...

Yahoo msger- ct_nur6677

friendster : craftsgirl_6677@yahoo.com

akhir kata dari ct...selamat berhari jumaat..hehhehe...senyum2 selalu..take care..

makanan jiwaku

hehehheee...

kalau dikira makanan manusia..

aku makan setiap hati..tp mengapa hati ini seolah kurang tenaga?

setelah aku ke program sek@mmu perak..baru kutahu makanan jiwaku..

aku akan bertambah2 tenaga jiwa bila ku curahkan bakti pada mereka yg memerlukan..

sememangnya aku beroleh kegembiraan yg tdak terhingga..

ada kepuasan di situ..

bila dpt kuisi kekosongan di jiwa adik2 di sek men keb Ahmad Boestamam..

terasa kepuasan di jiwa..

dan bila jiwa2 kami bersatu..

aku rasakan bagai bateriku di"charge" semula..

keakraban antara barisan fasilitator..buat aku terhibur..

ketulusan hubungan aku dan anak2 didikku..

buat aku puas..sepuasnya..

kupanjat kesyukuran..

semoga semua adik2 itu berjaya semuanya..amin..

tak habis disitu..sampai saje aku dari perak..terus kami sekeluarga ke kampung di melaka pd keesokan harinya..spend the whole cuti di sana..dn kemudian kami ke bahau neger embilan..

sepanjang di kampung, aku rpt dgn sepupu ku yg sorg ni..shah namanya..sbnrnya dia anak angkat kpd pak itamku..anak yatim piatu..namun ntah mengapa, aku punya suatu perasaan dgn anak bujang 16 thn ini...ingin aku lihat dia berjaya..aku mahu dia tingga dgn aku bila ia tamat belajar nanti..kebetulan aku bw dia ke bahau..dan sepnjg cuti itu..hbngan kami akrab..memandangkan family aku br sahaja bertemu slps mummy terpisah hmpir 30 tahun, tak kusangka kami boleh sebegitu rapat..

mlm pertama dihabiskan bersama mummy, pokteh, adik dan shah di pantai..sepanjang mlm di pntai, kmdn menaiki bot laju, dan diakhiri dgn membakar ikan..so nice..it was wonderful..

seterusnya, hari seterusnya, kami ke bahau, mandi sungai ulu bendul.mlmnya, kami mengahabiskan masa dgn bermain congkak, pelbagai permainan simple dn seterusnya keesokan harinya, bertolak pulang ke melaka semula..dn petangnya, kami bermesra di laut menanti masa utk menyaksikan matahari terbenam..such a wonderful unforgetable moment..

i should say, being a facilitator was full of contentment and happy family moment was so amazing...

thats y aku bagaikan sang pujangga kehausan yang ditimpa hujan..amin..kesyukuran kupanjatkan ke hadrat ilahi..semoga semua doa2 kami dimakbulkan...

the most scary thing ever..

hari rabu lalu aku mimpi sesuatu..
the most scary thing that ever happened to me...
aku mimpi malaikat dtg ambil nyawaku...
katanya.."cukuplah smpai disini hayatmu"
dia tidak bercakap..tp seolah2 aku faham apa yg dimaksudkan..
ya allah, aku takut sgt2..
it was not like a dream..
it felt like too real..
itulah first time ever aku rasakan "kecut perut"..
selama hari ini, aku x pernah rasa..
selalu dgr ajer..

ya allah...aku terbgun pukul 3 pagi dn trus tak boleh tdur smpai siang...
sehingga kini aku masih takut nak menjejaki katil tempat aku mimpi tu..
aku ni bkn penakut orgnya..tp sejak hal ini terjadi..
it feels like ade seseorg sentiasa memerhatikan aku dimana sahaja aku berada..
sungguh tidak tenang hatiku..

ya allah..aku takuttttt.....
sangat takut......
takut sekaliii...
aku takut mati...
astagfirullahalazim...aku seram...
ya allah, pnjgknlah usiaku dn ahli keluargaku...
amin ya rabbl alamin..

aku terpikir..
pernahkah org lain alami mimpi sebegini?
bagaimanakah mereka rasakan?

entah kenapa..

entah kenapa..

sejak akhir2 ni..

aku kurang minat nk update blog..

entah kenapa..

sejak akhir2 ni..

byk sgt aktiviti dan acara weekend aku..

entah kenapa..

akhir2 ni..

aku terlebih malas nak bls sms yg aku terima..

entah kenapa..

sejak akhir2 ni..

byk pula tv series yg aku selalu tgk..habis..

sekaligus mematahkan semangat aku nak menonton tv..

entah kenapa..

akhir ni aku berat mulut..

entah kenapa..

aku juga jadi berat tulang akhir2 ini..

entah kenapa..

aku kurang perasaan akhir2 ini..

entah kenapa..

aku merasakan ada rindu dlm hati ini..

tp tak tahu milik siapa rindu itu..

entah kenapa...

akhir2 ini aku terlalu sensitive..

entah kenapa..

akhir2 ini aku senang menjadi pemarah..

entah kenapa..

akhir2 ini..aku jadi semakin gemuk..

hehhehhe...aduhai..entahla kenapa..

kematian dan air mata

hari jumaat lepas...
aku dan family bertolak ke kampung kami di port dickson untuk mengahadiri pertunangan sepupuku....perjalanan yang sepatutnya mengamil masa more or less 2 hours turned up to be around 6 hours...memandangkan hujan lebat sepanjang perjalanan dr sungai besi ke nilai...we made up our mind to stop...kami berhenti tidur di perhentian sebelah seremban...hampir 2 jam juga..then, sambung perjalanan tp tersekat juga dlm traffuc jam..again aku bersungut...i am a bad driver...no patience...then, nk dijadikan cerita, my another sepupu call.lets named her as sepupu A...juga on da way ke kampung...katanya lapar..asking us to wait for them so that we can have lunch together somewhere around PD...so, bila dh smpai nk masuk highway PD,menunngu la pulak diorg yg masih dlm kesesakan kat highway seremban..then, kita pegi mkn kat teluk kemang...masa mkn, sepupu aku ni dok gelisah...sbb kami dpt call mengatakan adik perempuan dia tgh nazak..actually, adiknya dh masuk hospital dr subuh pg td lagi..but the situation was not serious..nothing to be worried...but, around almost 10 pm, anak2 sepupu A ni sruh mkn, takut nnt masuk angin..but around almost 10 pm, anak2 sepupu A ni sruh mkn, takut nnt masuk angin..but
she refused..seolah2 ade instinct…then , bila kitorg habis aje mkn…br nk smung perjalanan, my mom dpt call dr pakngah(father of my sepupu td..)..telling us that si B dah meninggal dunia…a complication of pulmonary embolisme…firstly, dia didapati mengandung luar rahim,…which is dia sendiri pun x sedar…the fetus’s age was just less than a month…and she started to suffer from hardness to breath…the surgey went well but after a few hours, sesak nafas dia dtg balik..and right after 30 mins, she just left…she left her loving kind-hearted husband together with her years old daughter..selepas shj dpt berita, kami 2 kerete pun bergegas patah balik ke hospital seremban…while driving, my heart just couldn’t stop beristighfar….thinking of how sudden she left us…

bila sahaja kami tiba di hospital, watching his husband crying just made my heart start shaking like hell…then, around 2 am, jenazah dah settle…suami arwah tentera, jadi semua disettlekan dgn senang, atas budibicara and tentara way…so, kami konvoi 7 kereta, mengikut belakang kereta jenazah dan jip tentera…my car was right behind the jip…smpai aje kat kampong pasir panjang, anak arwah sdg tidur..aku sbnrnya tak berapa “ngam” dgn bdk2…ony certain2 kids je…plus, mmg aku dgn anak arwah x rapat…but, that night, she seems to really stick with me..the next day pun, dia keep following me…maybe is bcoz aku kesian, then aku layankan jugak bdk2 ni…sama mcm arwah sepupu lelaki aku yg meninggal 3 years ago..anak2 dia skrg rpt dgn aku..pendek akat, lps jadi anak yatim, barulah hubungan kami rapat…kalau tak.., mmmg tak…anak arwah Si B ni namanya syuhada…syuhada asyik ikut aku kehuku kehilir..smpaikan aku nk lepak dgn budak lain pun dia keep melese-lese(org melaka paham la kut) dgn aku..huhu..i feel very sad for her…pity that cute little girl…that weekend was very tiring…sabtu, kebumikan jenazah…then, lps kebumi pulak, kebetulan sepupu aku yg lagi sebelah satu lagi bertunang…my family and I was rushing here and there..luckily rmh knduri bertunang tu hnya around 10 min driving from rmh arwah…mlm tu pulak , aku turun ke rmh arwah pula..untuk tahlil…sekali lagi syuhada mengikut aku ke hulu hilir..then , lps aje kenduri, aku naik ke darat (rmh knduri brtunang)…just for slep..then esoknya, mereka nk adakan tahlil slps zohor…early morning, kami dah ke sana untuk menolong apa2 yg patut…sebelum balik ke kl ptg tu..aku sempat pesan pd syuhada untuk jg ayah dia elok2..jgn degil2..kesian mereka anak beranak..

one thing yg berlegar2 dlm fikiran aku skrg ialah…sepanjang weekend tu, aku tak menangis pun..setitik air mata aku tak tumpah pun..adakah aku ini hati kering?atau kurangkah perasaan aku sekarang?oh…I really have no idea…till then , I end my story here by wishing best of luck to both the father and his daughter…aku dgr kabar, syuhada kan ikut sepupu aku yg satu lagi.(makngah kpd syuhada) untuk tinggal di kl buat sementara…semoga syuhada tabah…semoga allah cucuri rahat ke atas arwah…

Mr Happiness

Breezing inside…
Distance from the hearts..
Awaking in the lengthy white sleep…
that i had in the forest..
Currently creating the light..
The gratification of gaze..
Eavesdrop and scent…
Everlastingly fresh
Down from the memory lane
Yet I wonders..
How would this go further…
When the butterflies rise..
The colorful dance…
The glee has begun..

Swaying in romantic mood…
In favor of had joy…
I worship the light rain…
As I knew how I would end..
Now I apprehend the compassionate I owned..
My gratefulness for your smile..
You made me smile as well..
Do I fall for u…
Years doesn’t seem an odd to them..
But it does make a difference to me..
No joke for crushing..
No love for daydreaming…
towards the tranquility...
of the camping compound..
But evoking your gentleness…
Fly me away..
From the doubt I plant ed..
From all the dizziness I endure..

I will never stop praying..
Your existence will cheer me up..
May Allah bring u close to me..
Closer and closer…
For now, tomorrow and forever..
As you are the solitary one..
The one and only…
“Mister Happiness”…

This poem I wrote specially for my MMU Cyber Silat team…as they brought me “happiness” again..hehhehe…the thirst that I felt before is now faded away….
..

nobody

nobody knows where you might end up..

nobody knows...

the day u turn into blue..

the flies that u said gross...

infinite angle of ur life...

at one point...

the hatred is soaking u..

the next point..

u're just empty...

no shot at any time..

the history...

that u loved...

was betraying u...

and u are hoping for them again..

that just suck...

the better step on ur foot..

the sucker it goes...

but being so full was not enough for u...

so, u mumble and mumble..

frawning and yelling..

but nobody knows...

nobody heard..

as never wanted anybody to know ur true feeling..

thats the best...

being so smooth like water is bored..

to be as rough as the rock is too painful..

just drag all into it..

whenever u have choice..

u refused to choose..

and when there is no choice..

u're dying to choose..

so, who's fault it is???

today u are as healthy as horse...

tomorrow maybe u have no pulse..

just nobody know where we might end up..

rindu

rindu ...

ada seruan yang memanggil di situ..

agar dekat..

dan dekat lagi..

mahu..

ada keinginan dlm jiwa itu..

mahu kembali dan bersama lagi...

setiap waktu meningatkan aku pada kamu..

rindu..

dan bangga sekaligus..

membungkam nostalgia..

agar aku jadi mahu..

terlonjak2 mahu meluru..

ke gelanggang itu..

ya aku pernah di situ..

bersama kamu..

kamu dan kamu..

hati2 kami pernah bersatu..

sebulat tanah liat yang dikeraskan..

keunggulan kami pernah padu..

malah, masih padu dan kukuh..

dek kesuburan suasana..

kini aku jarang kesitu..

atas seribu satu alasan...

tp yang pasti..

aku merindui...

segenap ruang2 itu..

dan ragam2 kalian..

semoga setiap dari kita,

akan dirahmati olehNya,

dan moga kita akan kekal bersaudara smpai bila2..

puisi rasa di atas sy tujukan ikhlas buat teman2 seperjuangan silat sekalian di Multimedia university...wah, rindu bangat pada kalian...tak tertulis rindu aku pada kalian..hehhe...padah x bersilat, skrg bdn dh naik hmpir 10 kilo kot..huhu..pdn muka aku...tp sememangnya aku amat rindu dan rindu dan rindu pada semua..semoga kita berjaya di mana sahaja kita berada.....amin..

Tag ! Desktop

wahahhahah... ampun...sejak dua tiga menjak ni ct agak bz walaupun kelas x brp byk..hheheh
dan ampunlah sbb lama sgt simpan tag ni..hhehhe..anyway, ct nk intro kpd semua yg masih tertanya2..hehhe...hot story ni..hehhe...SITI NUR dgn ini mengisytiharkan bahawa dirinya telah "crystal clear" dgn sebarang peristiwa yang terjadi baru2 ini..hehhehe..thnk u kpd semua informer2 yg ct sanjungi..thnks...thnk su so much...hehheh...

TAG! SHOW ME UR DESKTOP

kene tag lagik..hehhehe...this time different subject pulak..nak nengok desktop pulak..anyway, kene tag dgn kanda Dhia

.......so, xkisah pun..malah, lebih senyum pulak dinda..thnks kanda ku shayang..hehheh

skrg, nah..lihatlah wajah desktop ku..hheheh

Resolution?

1024 by 768 pixel (right clik/properties/setting)

Laptop, LCD or CRT monitor?

Laptop LCD kot..

Been using this desktop since?

Since start dpt laptop yg baru ni la..hehheh..beberapa bln lepas le kot...

this walllpaper since?

Since my birthday last february..hehhehe...ct ni suka tukar2 wajah..hehheh...bila ct rindu someone, ct akan tukr lagik..hehheh...tp buat masa ni..nmpknya ct rinduka diri ct ler ..hehhehe

dan sekarang.ehehheh....ct nak mengtag siapa ek?ehheheh...

kanda chempaka biru

kanda Raina

kak leeds idol

abg serunai faqir

kak aininaufal

Note : Hit ‘Print Screen’ kat destop wallpaper tu (button next to F12) then paste kat paint/adobe photoshop ataupun powerpoint (save as ‘JPEG File Interchange Format’)

hehheheh...selamat mencuba..hehhe

a story ....never ending it..

When we name it a story..
Will everlastingly be a story..
I am no Cinderella with miserable tale…
And I am no girl such snow white..
With seven dwarfs helping all the time..

I am a young woman with a lifetime story..
Who keeps losses and glory..
Close to the focal part of my body..
All the way in long run life..
Even devoid of history....
Which category we got fall into..

Walking downward the road as winner…
Grumping with devotion in heart without cry..
Jumping down to the last summer..
From the autumn that never by..

Holding on friendship and love around..
We got carried away..
Fakeness that at all times surround..
Why would they all break away…
For some reason to be noted..
The shines and rains shadows the ground..
But still not to ever hate..
Not ever…
Never..


People said, there are several story in lives. Well, I guess “this” friendship story ends here. Let me begin other friendship story while my lifetime story never ends. Without forgetting to thank …”thank u for the nurture and thanks for your time. May Allah bless u and May u experienced what’s best for u…tills then, welcome to my memory frame…”

kanda teruna

byk sebenarnya yang aku nak luahkan disini..tp byk juga reason yg membuatkan niatku tidak kesampaian..

mengapa agaknya?oh..i have no idea..reallyy...

tp buat masa skrg,antara yg bermain di fikiranku ialah.....misteri kehilangan kanda karl teruna firdaus steward


kanda teruna, wherever u are...i will always pray for u,kanda una..may u be happy...

miss u..
adindamu,
dinda dara pawana...

merindui seorang abang..

kadang kala rindu itu mudah...
kadang kala rindu itu indah..
kadang kala rindu itu gundah..
kadang kala rindu itu resah..
kadang kala rindu itu pemusnah..

dan bila aku bukakan pintu hatiku pada kasih syg seorang abang...
aku relakan diri disayangi...
aku biarkan diri menyayangi...
dgn seasli yang mungkin...
aku terbangkan egoku dari namanya...
aku runtuhkan benteng "hati kering"ku...
atas dasar hubungan abang-adik...
dan aku biarkan suku dari hatiku...
untuk dia teroka...
biar dia tahu kasihku jua ikhlas..
kerna aku tahu dia memerlukan sokongan seseorang..
tatkala taufan meributkan semangatnya...
aku tiupkan sehalus mungkin semangat buat penahan jiwanya..
aku pijak setiap tohmahan dan sindiran dari rakan..
yang menyatakan "itu sebenarnya cinta"..
kerna aku percaya aku belum punya tempat untuk cinta..
melainkan kepercayaanku pada cinta si Dia..
yang aku junjung penuh setia..

dan kini..
saat kau hilang..
membawa diri mungkin..
atau ke mana sahaja kau mengemudi haluanmu..
aku doakan kau sentiasa selamat di bwh lindungannya...
aku ingin kau tahu..
bahawa aku merindukanmu...
atas dasar,akulah adikmu...
lalu kubiar kau beredar..
tanpa byk soal...
tak kan ku kesal..
kerna aku percaya..
hanya Dia yang bersifat kekal...

aku lah seorang adik..yang mana hubungan kami terjalin atas dasar hormat dan kasih serta sayang...aku masih ingat saat kau bilang kau menyesal..saat kau titiskan air matamu atas dasar kekesalan..dan bila kau hilang kini...aku tidak kesal..tidak sama sekali..menitiskan air mata jauh sekali..kerna aku belajar sesuatu...iaitu usah menyayangi andai bukan keluarga sendiri..dan terima kasih kerna berjaya membuktikan bahawa teoriku yang sudah lama tinggal tanda tanya adalah benar semata mata benar...

kini aku akan mula lebih berhati2 dari biasa...agar aku tidak terjerumus ke dlm mana2 "kasih syg" yang bakal mengundah rindu...sebuah rindu saling tidak tumpah seperti rindu yang kau miliki,abg...

abg, i know u always drop by and read my blog..and yes..purposely i wrote it here for u...sincerely, every single words is for u...please do not misunderstood...this is not anger, this is the fact..the reality..by the way, i am glad to see u happy..please bear in ur mind, there's once u said.."if i ever wake up, u'll be the first one to know, aite my lil sis?"... well, i will keep that in my mind without digging to it anymore...lastly, do not ever call urself spoiler or piece of trash anymore...u are not..will never be, okay abg?

puisi buat kanda DHIA

seindah mlm ini..
aku temukan diri yang asli..
menanti malam hadir tanpa melukai siang hari...
kerna semua adalah pasangan hakiki..
dimana mlm kutemui ketenangan diri...
naluri menghujani peribadi..
lalu aku lena diulit mimpi....
rupa baru pada perasaan hati...
realiti cetusan rasa nan asli...

its a slow mood tonight....credits goes to kanda DHIA atas puisi nan indah lagi ikhlas...u are very talented kanda...
the most beautiful thing is the tittle....
here is some "souvenir"for u....my lovely kanda Dhia ,,mmuuuaahh

kanda..

seiring camar pulang....

kita pasti tahu mereka kan pergi jua...

rindu itu akan sentiasa berdesir....

desirannya mengundang gundah nan pilu..

tatkala mentari ufuk megamu menghulur jiwa...

patrikan segala keluhuranmu didada...

relakanlah dirimu dijamah si penawar duka...

kerna bertatih tak kurang hebatnya...

cuitlah diri satukan rasa...

yang kian menderu bersama desir jiwamu...

lantaran sedar kirmirzi kan berarak...

tiada yang mampu memiliki si kekal...

ia akan datang dan kemudian pasti pergi...

warnakan duniamu...

serikan pancaran itu...

kerna kau layak menikmati segalanya...

kau layak menikmati bahagia...

dgn interpetasi lurutan jiwa..

kanda, kudoakan kau kan tenang sentiasa...moga debuan mistik itu disapu pergi doleh kilauan permata yang memancar kebahagiaan....

salam sayang,

adindamu...

Dinda Nur...