feelings...so fragile..


there's some time that u'll feel jelous..on something...sometimes of some one...even sometimes with some people..around u...or people that u observe...or even jelous to some situation..

there's some times u feel like dying..there's some time u fell like crying..and even some time u feel like wondering..or even sometime u feel like finding something that u'll never reach...

there's some situation that everything just can't be seen ...can't be touched..can't be hold..can't be understood..can't be stayed anymore..just can't stand anymore....

there'll be time that u feel like out of time..out of mind..out of comman sense..out of logic..out of ur limit..out of u...just so far from u...couldn't be grabbed anymore...

there's some times u feel like missing..feel like hating..feel like loving..feel like concerning..feel like annoying..fell like so nervous..feel like to ignore..feel like wanna leaving..feel like just everythings..feel like boring....

all i know is like....i'm jelous of those who have the chance to step on the tanah haram...mecca...and i feel like missing my beloved guru...and i feel like missing someone...and i know that i should feel like grateful bcoz i hane all people around me....

yesterday was a day to appreciate people that are close to you..and now i wanna announce that i do really appreciate u all..my old and newcomers in my life....u all mean everything to me....mmmmmmmuuuuuuaaaahhhhh....

appreciating,
**pawana malam**