kematian dan air mata

hari jumaat lepas...
aku dan family bertolak ke kampung kami di port dickson untuk mengahadiri pertunangan sepupuku....perjalanan yang sepatutnya mengamil masa more or less 2 hours turned up to be around 6 hours...memandangkan hujan lebat sepanjang perjalanan dr sungai besi ke nilai...we made up our mind to stop...kami berhenti tidur di perhentian sebelah seremban...hampir 2 jam juga..then, sambung perjalanan tp tersekat juga dlm traffuc jam..again aku bersungut...i am a bad driver...no patience...then, nk dijadikan cerita, my another sepupu call.lets named her as sepupu A...juga on da way ke kampung...katanya lapar..asking us to wait for them so that we can have lunch together somewhere around PD...so, bila dh smpai nk masuk highway PD,menunngu la pulak diorg yg masih dlm kesesakan kat highway seremban..then, kita pegi mkn kat teluk kemang...masa mkn, sepupu aku ni dok gelisah...sbb kami dpt call mengatakan adik perempuan dia tgh nazak..actually, adiknya dh masuk hospital dr subuh pg td lagi..but the situation was not serious..nothing to be worried...but, around almost 10 pm, anak2 sepupu A ni sruh mkn, takut nnt masuk angin..but around almost 10 pm, anak2 sepupu A ni sruh mkn, takut nnt masuk angin..but
she refused..seolah2 ade instinct…then , bila kitorg habis aje mkn…br nk smung perjalanan, my mom dpt call dr pakngah(father of my sepupu td..)..telling us that si B dah meninggal dunia…a complication of pulmonary embolisme…firstly, dia didapati mengandung luar rahim,…which is dia sendiri pun x sedar…the fetus’s age was just less than a month…and she started to suffer from hardness to breath…the surgey went well but after a few hours, sesak nafas dia dtg balik..and right after 30 mins, she just left…she left her loving kind-hearted husband together with her years old daughter..selepas shj dpt berita, kami 2 kerete pun bergegas patah balik ke hospital seremban…while driving, my heart just couldn’t stop beristighfar….thinking of how sudden she left us…

bila sahaja kami tiba di hospital, watching his husband crying just made my heart start shaking like hell…then, around 2 am, jenazah dah settle…suami arwah tentera, jadi semua disettlekan dgn senang, atas budibicara and tentara way…so, kami konvoi 7 kereta, mengikut belakang kereta jenazah dan jip tentera…my car was right behind the jip…smpai aje kat kampong pasir panjang, anak arwah sdg tidur..aku sbnrnya tak berapa “ngam” dgn bdk2…ony certain2 kids je…plus, mmg aku dgn anak arwah x rapat…but, that night, she seems to really stick with me..the next day pun, dia keep following me…maybe is bcoz aku kesian, then aku layankan jugak bdk2 ni…sama mcm arwah sepupu lelaki aku yg meninggal 3 years ago..anak2 dia skrg rpt dgn aku..pendek akat, lps jadi anak yatim, barulah hubungan kami rapat…kalau tak.., mmmg tak…anak arwah Si B ni namanya syuhada…syuhada asyik ikut aku kehuku kehilir..smpaikan aku nk lepak dgn budak lain pun dia keep melese-lese(org melaka paham la kut) dgn aku..huhu..i feel very sad for her…pity that cute little girl…that weekend was very tiring…sabtu, kebumikan jenazah…then, lps kebumi pulak, kebetulan sepupu aku yg lagi sebelah satu lagi bertunang…my family and I was rushing here and there..luckily rmh knduri bertunang tu hnya around 10 min driving from rmh arwah…mlm tu pulak , aku turun ke rmh arwah pula..untuk tahlil…sekali lagi syuhada mengikut aku ke hulu hilir..then , lps aje kenduri, aku naik ke darat (rmh knduri brtunang)…just for slep..then esoknya, mereka nk adakan tahlil slps zohor…early morning, kami dah ke sana untuk menolong apa2 yg patut…sebelum balik ke kl ptg tu..aku sempat pesan pd syuhada untuk jg ayah dia elok2..jgn degil2..kesian mereka anak beranak..

one thing yg berlegar2 dlm fikiran aku skrg ialah…sepanjang weekend tu, aku tak menangis pun..setitik air mata aku tak tumpah pun..adakah aku ini hati kering?atau kurangkah perasaan aku sekarang?oh…I really have no idea…till then , I end my story here by wishing best of luck to both the father and his daughter…aku dgr kabar, syuhada kan ikut sepupu aku yg satu lagi.(makngah kpd syuhada) untuk tinggal di kl buat sementara…semoga syuhada tabah…semoga allah cucuri rahat ke atas arwah…